Happy 11 months eve , dearling ! :D
Hehs , another outing with my precious today ! (: Hehs .
Went to the food expo together today . Nothing much actually, it's just some stalls which could be found all over Singapore . :O So yeaps , nothing much .
Then went over to the John Little's expo sale , got baby's comforter . Oh , there was a book fare too and i bought a book . Confessions of a Shopaholic ( i've been wanting to get it for 221208 years alr . ) . After that , due to my dizziness , decided to go to baby's place to slack instead of going somewhere else to shop. Sorry baby ! :x Hahas .
So bus-ed back to baby's place and slacked . Played maple , facebook , and watched some funny funny videos . ;o Hehs . Baby maple chiongster siols , chiong maple so fast X.x Say want wait for me de , in the end wanna chiong to level 43 . And i'm stuck at my pathetic 25 just to get a palm tree chair -.- ( Just started a Bandit . I miss my sin , xPEACHjuice D: )
Stayed over at baby's place for dinner before going off . His mama cooked for me ! :D Nice manzx . :O After that left . Baby sent me off home after that . Didn't have much activities today cause wasn't feeling very well , dizziness ._. Rawrrrrrrrrrr . Took some photos of baby in front of the mirror . This is what he always does in front of the mirror .
And some pictures in the toilet ! :O
And in the lift before going home ! :D
Hahas . Baby's tonning with bros tonight ): Sad . Rahhhhhhhhs , no phone calls and mapling with darling ler D: Hmms alrights , shall end off my post here . Byeeeeeeeeee ! :D
多少人愿意等待?
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排, 一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来
期待原来是一种伤害, 深爱的人一离开
是我不敢忽略你给我的爱
现在我只想回到最初的时候, 不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后,只有你会陪着我
现在我只想回到最初的时候,我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的你请你握紧我的手,请你看看我
请看需要你的我,一切重头
我只要你回头..
i still wanna play maple with you de .. i still wanna celebrate our 11 month de .. i still want to celebrate christmas with you de.. i still want to ton again with you de ..
i still wanna do everything that we said we would do with you de ..
i still love you de ..
and i always will ..
Trust .
How long have we been talking ( or rather quarreling ) on this topic alr ? Isn't a relationship suppose to have trust ? It's because i love you , that's why i trust you . I didn't care if i will get hurt if i fully trust you ( i know you have a lot of suitors ) or what, i just trusted . I used to not trusting you , because i was scared of losing you . I was selfish . I didn't want to hurt myself that's why i didn't trust . But after all these not trusting and then getting into much dissatisfaction and unhappiness with one another, aren't you tired ? And it just shows how much you don't love me . Because you scared of hurting yourself , you don't want to trust . You'd rather quarrel and make both of us unhappy than just trust and be happy together . If you did trust, would all those things you count as "betrayal" happen ? I don't think so .
I decided i was tired of quarrels and being suspicious of everything you did, so i trusted . And then you said , i don't love you . What the crap are you thinking ? It's because i love you , and i want both of us to be happy, that's why i decided to trust ? Weird , you'd rather have me doubting you 24 hours than to trust you . Thought you'd be much happier, but i guess i'm wrong .
And anyway, sorry for the straight-forwardness on the phone just now. Didn't mean it . But you didn't have to ______ because of that bah ? Are you sure you are serious ? You don't truly love me, do you ? :\
But still , i have to say . All i wanted was just peace and happy relationship with you . Why ? Because i love you , because i like being with you a lot , and because you meant everything to me . I just thought that if we trust , we could keep our relationship as long as possible . Even till marriage ? Trust to last . Seriously, i'm hurt ( if you still don't know ) . But do you give a fxcking damn ? I doubt so . All the while, your attitudes and such had already let me down a lot of times . But nonetheless , i still trust your promises to me . And promise after promise, you didn't mean it .. Do you know everytime you break a promise, i'm hurt ? Guess not . I'm very disappointed .
You used to give me all the assurance that you love me and you won't leave me and such , make me feel assured that i'll be the only one you truly love . But now ? You didn't even gave me any assurance ? You used to cheer me up when i was angry or upset, but now ? You only put in least effort to try to cheer me up ( which is like didn't help at all ) . And worse of all , you were the one who upsetted me .. Do you know i'm very disappointed ? Do you know how much i long for you to be like before to cheer me up like last time ? I missed those times ! I want to go back to those times ! T.T
What i've gotta say now is , i'm sorry . I really do love you a lot . Shouldn't even have mention anything about this and carried on . Because i really do missed the you in the past . I really hope we could be like before , sweet , couply life . I Love You .. 2212o8 ♥
我想要的，只是你的温柔，你的拥抱，你的吻，你的爱 。
我爱你;
I'm freakingly pissed off by my com and MapleStory now -.-
Zzx, now the Aran job had been released and it gives me so much problem . Fxck manzx . Now i can't even start Maplestory . Pissed . Download the latest full version also cannot . Anyone got solution to this ? Lols .
And damn, my com is lagging the hell out of me . -.- Really feel like giving up and throw my com down from the 12th storey -.-"
I WANT PLAY MAPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ! D:
Hey guys ! I'm back to blogging ! :D
Miss me notzxzxzxzx ? :3 Remember to tag me with your links alrights ? And i shall link you up .
Oh yeah , it's holidays ~ ^^ Slacking time ! (:
Hehs , shall update another time . Kinda busy now . Toodles ! :D
I know everything's my fault .. I didn't see it coming . I'm too foolish , i'm too stupid ..
And now , i'm left with nothing .
Baby , you promised never to leave me de .. We swore before , remember ? T.T I'm pained .. I feared this day . I don't want this .. I cannot takecare of myself , for i'm too dependant on you already .
You said you are going to be the first one who will bring me to Japan , you said you are going to be the first one to bring me to Singapore flyer .. You said you are going to prove to my parents that we are able to marry .. You said you will be my best husband that nobody ever has ..
I wanted to ton with you at east coast park together for one night, by the beach . I want to go Mount Faber and count stars together with you .. All these things you promised to do it with me .. Why .. ? We still have many more things to do tgt.. Why must you do this to me ... T.T I loved you a lot . I don't want you to go . I missed you . Don't go .. please ..
2212o8; forever .
Where are you ? You weren't the wonderful you i knew . Don't play hide-and-seek with me, don't hide your true self . I miss you . Please come back , will you ? :\
想念是会呼吸的痛，它活在我身上所有角落。
